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enlightenedatheist) wrote2021-07-04 04:38 pm
enlightenedatheist) wrote2021-07-04 04:38 pm
imeeji post-grad inbox
[ For mail going to Chrysanthemum!
Please note that all instances of "Chrysanthemum" will be replaced with [Izanami-no-Mikoto], his idol name.
You can also use this post for private visitation threads! ]
Please note that all instances of "Chrysanthemum" will be replaced with [Izanami-no-Mikoto], his idol name.
You can also use this post for private visitation threads! ]
Sent 386
I can keep busy AND have fun, so don't worry about that. LiliS seems to be doing okay, but they're definitely taking some losses. That violent guy's gone, and [Jack-of-All-Stats] seems to be graduating soon. There's been a lot of those lately... not that I've gotten any offers.
Thanks for the piece! I've been getting some practice in. If you come up with any others, send them along and I'll make sure to learn them.
How's being alive again? Try and let loose a little sometimes while you still can.
Miss you.
Love, [Blade]
386 or something idk
Your letter-writing etiquette is quite crude. Please understand I mean no offense by this: tone is hard to convey via text, so I want to make it understood that I write this with utmost fondness. Even your letter-writing style is very like you, and receiving it was a pleasure.
I want to thank you for the gift. I don't usually wear jewelry, but I'm happy to wear this one, as it both suits me very well and I will fully admit to its sentimental value over all else. If it were not something I aesthetically enjoyed-- let me be clear that it is-- I would wear it regardless.
(I must assume it is from you, as I cannot imagine anyone else would send me a bracelet with chrysanthemums on it, but it did come packaged separately from your letter.)
More than that, I am happy you've made it back safely, and that you no longer have to worry after your health more than anyone else would. I hope life back home is treating you well, and that you are getting plenty of chances to do the things you love to your heart's content. I wish you all the best in whatever you decide to do going forward; if you do not already, I can only encourage you to continue your piano playing professionally, as I believe anyone would be blessed to hear your work. I find myself missing the sound of your music often.
Speaking of things you excel at, the pudding you left was lovely. Thank you very much. Occasionally I think of practicing cooking myself, but in all honesty, I have little talent for such delicate work. Certainly I am capable of creating something visually appealing, but I must admit to lacking creativity with such things as flavors. It's truly fortunate that there are so many decent restaurants in the area.
[Blade] has also taken it upon himself to bring us desserts. I am not too fond of sweets, but I would never deny his gifts. I think he may be worried about us.
LiliS is doing adequately, as well. I cannot say we are doing "good"-- as individual as we all are, keeping up with each other has always been somewhat difficult-- but we are trying to engage in more things together, especially since [Sir Chocolate Hazelnut Spread] has arrived. He's very intent on everyone doing things together, and I cannot say I don't appreciate it, even if I am too awkward of a person to be good company for the unit at large.
We are becoming quite small again, however. [Jack-of-All-Stats]'s graduation is imminent, and I am happy for him, though of course I will miss him... But I find my anxiety to be getting somewhat out of hand once more, as [Great Transgressor] has been taken away, as well. I do not know how he felt about me as a person, but I had begun to think of him as something of a friend despite our differing views, as there were things we felt, I think, quite similarly on, and despite his crude nature I had begun to grow fond of his constant presence. I am continuing with my portrait-making, of course. I cannot in good conscience stop making them, for fear that it may seem like I do not appreciate one or more over the others, as that is simply not true. But I worry that the dread I feel when I sketch out a new piece will only grow as time goes on, and though remembrance is a most blessed of acts I cannot bring myself to hang the finished pieces in the hall as planned for fear that this hurt will never properly scar, and I will simply drive myself to misery further. I don't mean to be dramatic, and I hate to put it in such a way or admit such weakness, but what had begun as way to attempt to ease the hurt has instead become a source of it. I have not been here long, and we lose many. I have only recently finished an old one, and have not even begun to work on yours, and lately I find my studies and other unrelated artworks have become hard to put on the page.
(I have given [Demeter]'s portrait to her; she would be hurt, I think, if I continued to feel such petty things and treat her as if she had truly left us. Perhaps she was hurt by the portrait anyway.)
I am so sorry that much of this letter is so dour, and I wish I had more happiness to share with you, but I've begun to realize that, perhaps, there is something wrong with me. I've heard it said admitting there is a problem is the first step to fixing it, and I am attempting to do that, or at least identify it in the first place...? I don't truly know. Some time ago I'd become aware that my lot in life back home is likely to die young in service to my Lord and my Church, though I do not know how or why, or if the future and fate can truly be changed. [Fuck If I Know] surprised me by being desperately upset about this, and as a result, I've been forced to think about myself more, rather, been forced to think about my future more. It fills me with unimaginable terror, to think of living beyond what I am allotted, nor do I know how I am going to make it happen. I do not know how to "spend my life" with someone, or that it was even possible, until recently. For some reason, though I cannot stop feeling frightened, I want to live. I don't recall if I ever told you about any of this. I'm so, so sorry if this comes as a surprise.
Please forgive me for the length of this letter, and the unfortunate contents within. It is much easier to write, than to speak, and I think perhaps I have kept this within me for too long.
I miss you very much.
Love,
[Agnus Dei].
394
That's probably fine.]
393ish?? i guess?
Dear [Izanami-no-Mikoto],
I'm sorry, this letter is going to be rather short. Thank you for the gift, more sincerely this time. I've been wearing it every day.
It seems I won't be able to finish most of my paintings after all, regardless of what I originally had intended to do with them or not, so I will leave them to Camellia to do with as she sees fit.
[FUCK IF I KNOW] and I are graduating soon, it seems. I don't know how to feel. With my memories returned in full, I'm not sure if I can go home again, or that it would be safe to, for me or the world. I do not believe [FUCK IF I KNOW] can return home, either.
I hate to be a burden, and asking this brings me no small amount of shame, but I wished to ask if there was, perhaps, room in your world for two wanderers. I understand if you cannot respond by the time our graduation rolls around; I will make some sort of contingency plans, so please don't worry. And please don't feel as if you're responsible for us in some way, either.
Regardless of what happens, I hope to, somehow, see you again soon.
Love,
[Agnus Dei].
401??? Ghost game day
-[Blade]
[Included are two silver ear cuffs, pretend they're both about the same size, I'm tired. He bubble-wrapped them so they wouldn't poke through the envelope or paper, but maybe it's enough to actually protect them from hell postal system too?]
404
It's probably too soon to tell, but have the new neighbors been doing okay? You better tell me if anything funny happens. I'm missing out on so much blackmail over here.
[The Seance] got transferred from LiliS to Taisho, and there's a new guy "[🐺]" along with [Elegant Emperor] from BARiTONES? The other day I noticed some people getting moved to BAD END from other units, too. It looks like they're shuffling people around, but I can't say I know why. At least [CRESCENT RISE] will be happy. Camellia's hanging in there as far as I can tell.
Some of the recent graduates got us access to Imeeji stocks, too. It'll take a while to save up, but if you were going to buy a whole building, what kind of building would you get? I'm taking suggestions.
That pretty much ends my report. Games have been rough lately, but there's no helping that, as usual. Hopefully things are better on your end.
-[Blade]
407
It's about the same as usual stuff happening. Thanks for the ring, but do you have any idea how many people assumed it was a proposal? Next time I'll send them to harass you over it.
Blackmail-wise, obviously [FUCK IF I KNOW] struggling with modern life! It's important to keep him on his toes about these things, you know.
Visiting other worlds? All they explained to us was stock options. You'll have to fill me in. In fact, come fill me in over here, because sending all those photos was just mean! Celebrate it properly with me so I can try too!!
We've got yet another newbie, so I'll have my hands full getting him settled in. I'll send another along if I find any other good accessories - but then again, if you visited, you might get a little say in what you get.
-[Blade]
411
Good thing you're out, they've really been relentless about bad games lately. This time they threw us all in an arena and told us to kill each other or test our luck against the arena itself for poor performance, so that went about as well as you'd imagine. New LiliS guy seems to be pulling his weight at least; they were able to get middle-tier ranking, so at least they got free revivals.
I'm still waiting on a visit, you know! There's got to be some good autumn foods to make, right? I want a sample!
See you,
-[Blade]
425
Inside is one chrysanthemum earring and one snowdrop earring, both carefully bubble wrapped so they don't ruin the photo.]
427
[Izanami-no-Mikoto]
Some of our fans were killed. The whole unit's grey. People are trying to fix it. I don't think anyone knows how to.
It was you who I wanted to return to, isn't it? A lot's still missing, but you were important.
If I couldn't return,
I thinkI'm sorry.[Blade]
434
Everyone chipped in to get us enough attention. sensitIV's fine.
Visit when you can.
Please.
-[Blade]
Day 443
Day 460
I guess it's still really busy over there, huh?
Camellia isn't here anymore. The only ones left that you would have known are [CRESCENT RISE] and [Elegant Emperor]. Despite that, the unit's a lot bigger these days. They have more busybodies now. They actually outnumber a few of the other units.
You'll have to give me a heads up if you want your Valentine's chocolate so I can remake it. I ended up eating it (︶︿︶)
You know you can write back, right?
-[Blade]
Day 517
I couldn't convince others to come to our world, so I guess you won't have more work heaped on you for now
(￣︿￣)
How's normal life treating you? I, for the record, haven't been physically brutalized in nearly a month! Which is much more than some people can say.
It's nearly Christmas here. You could always come pick up your gift in person, you know. Otherwise, you can be on the lookout for something in the mail in the next week or so.
Miss you,
-[Blade]
Day 523
Well, maybe next time! I'm sending along your gift this year, but next year you better come visit!
-[Blade]
[Inside is a carefully packaged ring. The musical notation engraved on the inside is the piano part of a song they once practiced together.]